"I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain."

I am not one who is good with Goodbyes,
I am not one who is good with Changes.

I cry too much, I sulk too often, and I'm quite a handful to handle when things doesn't go my way.

I know that.

But recently, it seems like I could just say 'Goodbye' with a straight face, and I'm constantly chasing after Change.

I surprised myself quite a bit, really.

I still cry sometimes, and I still sulk behind the scenes, and when things doesn't go my way, I keep quiet and smile...

"Is there something wrong with me?", I kept asking the people around.

Someone said,"Yes."
Someone else said,"No. This is call growing up."
My Mom said I looked overly tired.

And I believe my Mom.

I am now what society call - A Norm.

Sad to say. Very sad to sad.

Or, do I just need to find that one Muse?

Love,
M